Season of Joy

Christmas has been such an enjoyable time with Pete & the girls. Zoey is thoroughly into the lights, Santa, cookies, presents & all the fun. Karli has been such a trooper too....not pulling down every xmas tree she sees & grabbing every ornament she can reach. This Xmas was more fun & I'm sure will get greater every year as the girls get older.

I can't believe it's been FAR too long since I've blogged. I seriously don't find THAT much interesting about my life or perhaps I'm too shy to "blog it". Recently, an associate asked me to write an email about my qualifications, licensing & background. I wrote it, asked him to proof it & he said I wasn't telling enough....I needed to "brag more" so know I can do the job. So round about.....I relate that to my blogging. Does that make sense?

I feel much calmer lately - still trying to be the greatest mom & wife - but calmer about life & the changes it holds. I'm trying my best to 'Let go & Let God'.

Reminding Myself

I feel like lately I have to remind myself more often to be positive & remember all the good things. I teased today that "Gerlach lost her Groove"....kinda how I feel. I am thankful that people like Tara remind me to have faith & remember the love of the Lord. I know there is a power, far greater than any power I hold, that oversees myself, my family & friends.



The greatest thing right now - my girls. I love the funny little things Zoey says: "Mommy, it's Halloween time; what are you going to be?" (for which I didn't have an answer but am open to suggestions) And Karli - the cute lil' looks she gives & the "language" she uses to tell me all the most important things going on every day. I wish I could encapsulate these times because I know I'm far too distracted to fully absorb the moments. I remind myself to slow down, enjoy every moment & forget about work when I'm not there.



Perhaps I need to concentrate on enjoying the moment. It just occured to me that I might be looking forward to our future more than enjoying the present. Hmm - need to ponder that. I'll admit, part of looking forward includes seeing friends I miss so dearly.



Halloween - this weekend - Zoey's Thumbelina & Karli's a Ladybud....Sunday is mom's birthday. I'm looking forward to a fun weekend with family and....enjoying every moment in the present.

Kitty Cat Food

This whole thing started when Karli walked out to me in the kitchen with a handful of cat food kibble. Upon further investigation, I found a mouthful of cat food kibble,as well. Yes, I was floored! I was looking at my lil' 1 yr old, who had obviously snuck into the cat's bowl & filled her lil' mouth & fist full of kitty kibble. Yuck!

Anyhow, after my outcry & telling Pete all about our darling Karli & the cat food - later that day we were talking about it in front of her. She seemed to know what we were discussing. So I turned to her & asked, "Karli, did you eat the kitty cat food?" To which she denied with a big head shaking "no.

This is a pic of the testimony she gave.....and I made a video!

My Cowgirl

Yee-Ha! Giddy Up!

Zoey riding her pony & being a cowgirl. If it's not her rocking horse, it's giddy-up Daddy.

I took this pic a couple weekends ago. Zoey asked me to bring her rocking horse out to the Great Room & when I also pulled out the camera, she let me capture this shot. Love it!

Life is an Adventure

An adventure....that's what I keep telling myself.

I know you're out there - you...the controlling one that always wants to be sure life is in perfect order. Well, sister....how do you handle the chaos? How do you let go & let it be?

I am such a total control freak - I am fortunate my mother taught me, "Let go, Let God." Should I tattoo this on the back of my eyelids so I don't forget? I always remember it in my calm....but when I'm revving that blood pressure, mind is racing, heart is pumping & I can hardly breath from the "out of control" feeling my mind draws a blank.

I keep trying to tell myself - think of it like when I was 19, single w/ no kids.....I was always looking for my next adventure. What's really so different?...a 1 & 3 year old, a husband & too many worries. But I know it can be done....remember Breakfast at Tiffany's - my favorite film. It's that carefree, happy-go-lucky feeling of "come what may." (I need to watch that again!)

Phillipians 4:13....thanks AR.

How do you remind yourself?

In Harmony

Picture this -

We're cruising along the road after having breakfast with friends, on our way home via a stop by the market. Karli starts to belt out her "Hey!-pay attention to me" yell that sounds like "Aahhhhh". As soon as she stops to take a breath, Zoey mimics Karli with "Aahhhh". It's like the repeat took Karli by surprise - she looked quickly to the left at her sister....then smiled. And without hesitating she goes right in for another "Aahhhh" then looks to see if her sister will do it again. They both start to giggle - "Aahhhh-ing" at each other. Next thing you know, we have a little girl chorus of a mid-pitched yell coming from the back seat.

Pete & I had started looking at each other & smiling when the first mimic started. Now, we started to laugh to one another. Was it loud - somewhat. Was it annoying - could have been. Pete & I thought it was hilarious. But that's not it....

I was driving & Pete turned his body in the front seat so he could see both girls. I hadn't paid attention to him; I was listening. Next thing I know, Pete is orchestrating the "Aahhhh's". He started gesturing with their tone & bringing his arms up with the yell then across & down at the finish. Then, he even started trying to get them to stop on cue....it worked! By the time we pulled into Safeway, Pete had the girls starting & stopping their "Aahhhh" yell on cue. It was hilarious - first to hear the girls start playing like that in the car, then to see Pete jump in & play too....all in harmony.

Inspiration and Changes

I will admit - 2 individuals have inspired me to start blogging. I am inspired that there could be people out there, that I am unware of, that are actually interested in reading my thoughts & happenings.

Currently, there are so many changes happening in my life. Some are visible & obvious, while others are quiet in my mind & pass in/out of thoughts constantly. Still, some are just not ready to be made public yet. To the latter, I have so many ideas & hopes. Though most signifigant changes are somewhat uncomfortable....I am blessed to have these changes in my life & the people involved, as well.