An Open Letter to a Dad
I want to thank the man who
married my Mom. Despite the fact, you
abandon me not only once but twice, you have taught me strength and true,
unconditional love.
When you walked away the
first time, I was 3 and I didn’t understand it. My mom shared some of my time with you but
your focus was really, usually, on the older brother. That was the older brother that beat the crap
out of me for 7 years. It’s like you didn’t know what to do with a daughter. That
makes me feel sorry for you. Now that you’ve abandon me
again, I’m 46, and I understand far more…..
I understand that my Mom died
and you haven’t spoken to me since. I can tell you, to the day, the last time
we spoke. July 16, 2015. Both my parents died that day.
I understand you must feel guilty
for the abuse the brother gave to me. If you didn’t feel guilt you would
understand it more fully and not choose sides.
I understand that quite
possibly your heart is not capable of loving fully. You cannot empathize or show
compassion for those that are hurt or weak around you.
I understand that just
because I am diagnosed with PTSD I am not allowed to be loved by you. If you
can’t control the situation; it is not in your world.
I understand that my
imperfection doesn’t fit into your life, nor does it fit into your realm of understanding.
I understand that I have
learned, I have grown & I am far stronger than you will ever be able to
imagine.
I have learned that you fall
for the sociopathic lies your son tells you.
Those fit easier into your life rather than asking questions and
deciding your truth.
I have learned family doesn’t
mean anything and blood is not thicker than water. What matters is the heart
and the people that truly care.
I have learned that I am perfectly
imperfect and a lot of people love me that way. It’s unfortunate that you
cannot. (Again, I feel sorry for you.)
I have learned that my
husband and daughters are my world, will always be here for me and they have
been just as hurt by your poor decision making.
I have learned you have
little regard for anyone outside yourself.
I have learned I am nothing like
you. (I feel sorry for you again here too.)
I am the strong and powerful
daughter my Mom taught me to be.
I am the compassionate,
caring person my Mom wanted me to be.
I am the example to my
daughters that my Mom said I would be.
I am a confident mother, wife
and friend because of the valuable lessons my Mom taught me.
I know if my Mom were here
now we'd agree; she would be just as disappointed in you. (And your son.)
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