I've grown up with my RLT (the bio Dad) gently suggesting that my mom never wanted a second child. He claims he bribed her - I have the diamond he says was the bribe. But here's the thing....I'm starting to wonder. First of all, why would any parent ever suggest that? My mom & I were tight (until her dementia) - was he jealous? OR....was HE the one that didn't want another kid?
I'm starting to think RLT didn't want another kid. Why?...you ask.
Here are 3 reasons (I think) RLT really is the parent that didn't want kid #2:
1) My mom always had my back. I mean always! She never swayed or made me feel unloved or abandon. That is just the opposite of RLT.
2) Unless you're trying to drive a wedge in a relationship or try & weaken it, why would he suggest my mom didn't want me? That sounds manipulative if you ask me. (You're asking if you're reading my blog.)
3) RLT has been the first one to walk away from me in life & he's done it multiple times. Ok, I'll give him the cancer card....he helped me through that but I'm starting to wonder why. Perhaps he felt like he looked like the hero if did.
It's utterly perplexing to me how my father can stand by his son who is so ridiculously unhealthy & affirm his choices. I seriously think my dad is "friends" with SCT because he is useful. SCT is useful in entertainment, technology & manual labor.
I am getting so far off topic it's crazy. However, point being is that I have wondered for a while about why RLT would suggest that my mom didn't want me, yet, my mom was my #1 fan & supporter that never swayed. (Except when she had dementia & my brother was manipulating her.) I guess I'll never know & RLT will die with all the secrets of our early family....just like his father did. #HeNeverLearned
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